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Thursday, December 24, 2009

Bastards

I can't believe that the debate about how guys are bastards is still going on. Girls can happily call guys bastards because of the ever so popular view on how men are always the responsible one for break-ups and how men can steal a woman's dignity and value but a girl can't do the same.

Honestly some people or should I say most girls, should just learn to keep up with the ages. Those are stories from days of old where men were seen as the superior gender and a woman must always abide to their words and likings. Nowadays the world has flipped and the girls are the ones sleeping around with random people on first dates and when they get dumped they blame it on the men. Some girls even give their guys too many second chances even after they have been cheated on repeatedly/for very long and when it doesn't work out, it's the guy's fault again. Now who's stupid? There are perfectly good guys out there and almost every girl has at least 1 sincere, nice guy who admires her and would love to be with her and treat her right but she doesn't want to be with him because he's ugly/poor/not fashionable or she doesn't notice him at all because girls nowadays are looking at all the wrong places such as the Internet and nightclubs.

THINK! People go to clubs to flaunt, get drunk, mingle and flirt and ultimately have fun. They're not looking for happily ever after in there! Not ruling out the possibility of true love blossoming from a meeting in a club but don't go searching with high hopes because you'll only find yourself waking up one day to regret it. I'm tired of reading newspapers/forums and seeing all these women who call men bastards for reasons as stupid as having wasabi in sushi. They either think their mothers are Virgin Marys because apparently their dads are bastards so they don't deserve being called parents or these people are happy with homosexuality and trying to rid the world of men. Here's a quote from me and I'm so damn proud of it I wish I could trademark it.

Guys can't be bastards if Girls aren't stupid so stop calling guys bastards, stupid!

Guys in the form of Mats, Ah Bengs and all scum of society DO NOT represent Guys as a whole!
So before you get dumped and cheated on and your poor little heart breaks, why don't you ask yourselves why and how did you even end up with that 'bastard' in the first place. Learn to protect yourself before harm is brought upon you. Take preventive measures. Even grandmas know by now not to flaunt their jewellery in public so as to not attract bad attention. Calling guys bastards is very insulting especially to dads (and wonderful crime fighters like me). I don't care how bad they were to you because you wouldn't have experienced life if it weren't for them. At least have some damn respect!

This is in no way directed at U Hunny because U're not like them. U like me (whom these other girls categorise as a bastard) :D

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Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Progression

I've been spending the last 6 months thinking about how I should progress. Hunny's in Dubai and I'm stuck here, doing nothing.Honestly a huge part of me wants to work in Dubai with Hunny, but I also know that a career over there probably won't last forever and I'll end up back here with what little education I have and won't be able to find a proper job. I do feel like schooling, but I don't know whether it is because I'm not prepared to work. Somehow I feel like I still have it in me to study well and have a good education, but I also have a strong need to earn a stable wage to support my family and marry Hunny. I feel like I deserve a good life after all these years. I won't say being me was so bad, but it could have been a lot better. Maybe I just need food -_-.

I kind of decided to look around for courses and part-time jobs. Really don't know what I'm after but I guess I'll have to work my brains properly this time. It's been on hibernation since I graduated from ITE. I'm flattered when family members say that I should be more by now because they feel that I'm much more capable than what I've accomplished, and I wish I had the same perception of myself. Maybe I do, but I just don't like to progress. Over the past few days I've been thinking of what I've been doing at home for so long and when I looked at the date it reminded me that I'm turning 23 in just over a month (presents hehehehehe just kidding) and I realised that DAMN I'm seriously getting old. I only have a Higher NITEC cert, and I'm certainly not proud of it. I totally blame the system. National Service needs some reconsideration on enlistment criteria. Maybe they should just allow everyone to just complete their studies, at least up to a Diploma level or when they feel like they can't progress. Bahh complaining won't do me any good.

This is one damn wordy entry so I'm sorry. Well I really had my mind made up to try out for Emirates and fly, but my sister and brother suddenly had a change of heart and told me to study. I can't blame them, because they don't know how I feel, being half the world away from Hunny and desperately wanting to provide for Ibu. I felt so hurt when my sister suddenly scolded me in the car back from Makwe's birthday celebration, saying that I never think of long-term plans. Yeah try saying that in the mirror if your husband is in Dubai working. I bet you'd leave Singapore and work there. Ahhh I'm evil I know but I don't hate her. Seriously people always say, "I know how you feel," but hell no they don't! I mean they get the IDEA but they can't FEEL it. I appreciate that they try though.

So I guess today I'm going to make that progression, even if it's just a step from my idleness. As long as I move away from the crossroads I'll feel better. I just hope it won't bring me too far away from what I hold dear.

I miss U Hunny
I love U Ibu
I'm sorry I can't even get to choose either one of you right now
I'll have to choose myself and hopefully there will come a day when I can choose both of you
Please wait for me

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