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Monday, April 6, 2009

Retirement

My boss is retiring pretty soon, and I've been helping him clear up his dust-filled office. Found a worm, a roach, bitten twice on the face by mosquitoes, it pretty much sucked. Well his office was COVERED and I mean COVERED by his photos, certificates and army memorabilia, so when I started removing things one by one, the room kinda lost it's identity. From a room that gave you a headached with so many images and colours, to the blankness of plain white walls. He has been in the army for 36 years, spent 6 years in this current office. I realised how sad he was when I was about to begin the clearing. He walked around and started looking at each photo, cert and memorabilia, taking it all in for the last time. He looked at me and sighed, '' Oh well, what can you do. That's life.'. Poor fella, in the twilight of his living years, having to accept that the end of his career also meant the last bend in his circuit of life. He was always eating my head with his nonsense and mindgames, but overall, he was understanding when I needed him to be, so I'm gonna miss him. All the best Gnana!

Anyway I was just thinking, how is it going to be like when I retire? Can I boast that I've lived my life to the fullest? Married the person I wanted to live my life with? Balanced work with family? A whole bunch of questions man, seriously it's scary, because there are many things concerning those questions that can't be controlled. I just hope I won't retire full of regrets.

If all goes well, I'm moving to Dubai, work there and be with my Linny. It's a tough decision to make, but sometimes, some things are worth risking everything. I may disappoint people and be disowned in the process haha but I will never deny myself happiness, and that is all the reason I need to leave what I have. This is my pursuit for my happy ending. I'm coming to U Love. :)

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