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Sunday, April 26, 2009

FUCK HOWARD WEBB, ROB STYLES & SLUR ASSWIPE FERGIE'S-SHIT

Quoted from Soccernet Gamecast Commentary

Don't get me wrong, its not United fault per se. Yes, they may go looking for a penalty but who doesn't. The fact is the referee's are blinded by Manchester United love and keep pointing to the spot. Terrible.
Fuck you Ferguson. Your endless bitching has influenced referees to be afraid of being questioned regarding their integrity on decision making. Protect your divers? Nonsense!

Seriously whoever's proud to have this asshole as the manager of your favourite team should be ashamed. He's been manipulating the game to suit him for years! How can you influence the league schedule to suit your team and your team only? Other teams have many competitions too. Liverpool has been travelling overseas for years, involved in FA cup ties too but never has Rafa insulted the scheduling and tried to change it. It's just not right. Fuck MANCHESTER UNITED. Cheating your way to titles. The Spurs game was STOLEN!

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Thursday, April 23, 2009

Fine I'll Blog Normally

Ok I know I've been guilty of blogging about Hunny all the time but hey what else can one expect. I'm always thinking of her so I can't help it. In case people are wondering, no I'm not having a problem with her! It's just that she's really far away and I miss her so much. Plus she was in Dubai when it was our 5th Year Anniversary and when it was her birthday on the 15th this month so it sucks! Can you imagine that when you're actually seriously wanting to settle down with the girl of your dreams and she 'migrates' to Dubai for a job and your qualifications don't allow you to follow and you can't do anything about it? You can only visit and that's about all you can do to keep the relationship going. Other than that it's just the webcamming. Most of the time is spent waiting for the next form of interaction and days are filled with thinking what could and should have been. When she was still around I called her everyday when she wakes up, I joke with her all the time, I cry on her shoulders, I complain to her about everything, I bring her everywhere I wanna go, I ate everything I felt like with her... In short, I shared my life with her. Now she's away! Very far but she has a purpose so I can't blame her. It's her dream, and everyone is entitled to chase dreams. You just cannot begin to imagine what I'm feeling about this, what I think about Us not meeting. How are we going to endure all the lost time together? I don't know, I just have to try. I LOVE U very very much Siti Nurazlin :(

The times we had were so cool! I want them backkkkkk! I miss U and I can't wait to see U again it hurts. I know I keep saying this everyday until it gets real stale but it's just how I feel. Laughing, complaining, crying, eating, sleeping, waking up, looking at scenery, taking public transport, going to shopping centres, lazing around, grocery shopping, calling on the phone, they will never be the same. I want them back. I need U. Change my life again, for the better. U made me who I am today. U made me patient, less evil, and U made me realise that Loving is easy. U made me nicer in general. Thank U. Life is so beautiful when U're around. I don't want to spend it alone anymore, or with anyone else. Please be with me, grow old with me, spot my first wrinkle, laugh at my age whenever it's my birthday, smear food on my face when U're pretending to be nice and feeding me, get angry at me for stepping on Ur slippers as we're walking, pinch me when I look at other girls. Do everything again! I need it in my life. I need U. I truly miss everything about U. U're one of a kind. Nobody else could have had such an impact on me. Maybe it's because U're like me and U understand me so much it scares me. Come home :( hope U'll get Singapore flights soon.

For now all I can do is sing 'We're gonna get through this'

| 7:17 AM |

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Happy Birthday Love

I'm absolutely gutted that I couldn't spend the day with U. Wish things were different. Hope U're having a good day :)

1st time in 5 years that we missed both our anniversary and Ur birthday :(

I don't want to ever miss them again.

| 8:10 PM |

Sunday, April 12, 2009

No one compares to U

I've been miles from nowhere

Crossed and doubled back

Time is a healer

And I've done my time

Cause I ain't seen love like that

I've seen the light of freedom

Dim and fade to black

So many faces, but no one compares

No, I ain't seen love like that

And I got people telling me to let her go

Don't let it turn you around

Tomorrow's comin' and you'll never know

The one that you lost may be found

I believe in justice

I wonder where's she's at

It feels like a lifetime

And it just ain't fair

No I ain't seen love like that

And I got people tellin' me to let her go

That girl is bringin' you down

Tomorrow's comin' And you'll never know

The love that you lost may be found

Let her go? Are you kidding me? To the people who've said bad things about her being away from me, I'm utterly disappointed and it's not fair. It affected me a whole lot and it's just not nice that you would judge my relationship like that. You don't even know Us. I've been with her for over 5 years and my relationship has roots leading back to primary school. Can you boast that? Whatever you say won't phase me anymore. I hope you people will realise your mistakes and I hope no one does it to you because it hurts.

I gave U my heart, and now it's in Dubai with U :) I believe in U

Forget what people say. We're stronger than that. I love U and I will love U for a lifetime. So Smile!

| 5:49 PM |

Monday, April 6, 2009

Retirement

My boss is retiring pretty soon, and I've been helping him clear up his dust-filled office. Found a worm, a roach, bitten twice on the face by mosquitoes, it pretty much sucked. Well his office was COVERED and I mean COVERED by his photos, certificates and army memorabilia, so when I started removing things one by one, the room kinda lost it's identity. From a room that gave you a headached with so many images and colours, to the blankness of plain white walls. He has been in the army for 36 years, spent 6 years in this current office. I realised how sad he was when I was about to begin the clearing. He walked around and started looking at each photo, cert and memorabilia, taking it all in for the last time. He looked at me and sighed, '' Oh well, what can you do. That's life.'. Poor fella, in the twilight of his living years, having to accept that the end of his career also meant the last bend in his circuit of life. He was always eating my head with his nonsense and mindgames, but overall, he was understanding when I needed him to be, so I'm gonna miss him. All the best Gnana!

Anyway I was just thinking, how is it going to be like when I retire? Can I boast that I've lived my life to the fullest? Married the person I wanted to live my life with? Balanced work with family? A whole bunch of questions man, seriously it's scary, because there are many things concerning those questions that can't be controlled. I just hope I won't retire full of regrets.

If all goes well, I'm moving to Dubai, work there and be with my Linny. It's a tough decision to make, but sometimes, some things are worth risking everything. I may disappoint people and be disowned in the process haha but I will never deny myself happiness, and that is all the reason I need to leave what I have. This is my pursuit for my happy ending. I'm coming to U Love. :)

| 8:05 PM |