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Friday, July 6, 2007

7 days

That's how long I have left till enlistment. I'm still not scared but I know I'm gonna miss my family, Hunny and friends. Plus things are going to change drastically in terms of my daily life and friendships.

No more slacking around for me, which is what I've been doing for so long. From 7 days later my life will be going at a faster pace than I've ever driven it. For the first time in my life I feel as though I don't have control over my gears and the shifting will be forcefully done by time itself. I feel alot heavier in terms of responsibilities weighing down on me, as if I feel my existence becoming more meaningful and I'm not floating in naivity anymore. In 7 days I will be completely down to earth.

Watched Transformers yesterday (finally) and I think I know why I'm not the least anxious or worried. Seeing soldiers in combat really gives me goosebumps and I think I'm born for action. Come to think of it I was never the type to sit around quietly and ponder on things and I always needed something to do and got into the most trouble among my friends. To summarise it, I simply love to get through adversity and explore my limits. I need to kick some butt to truly feel alive, but not participate in meaningless "I'm better than you" events like MR MAMAK hahaha. Why does everyone like Bumblebee? I prefer Frenzy! Cute! Though Starscream and Sixshot has always been my favourite though Sixshot wasn't featured. Not to mention Beast Wars's Dinobot!

To Yaht, don't worry so much. There will always be people who are weaker than you and if they can make it, you can. You're only as weak as your mind allows. Just worry about people who you will leave behind, I guess that makes you appreciate them more. I know I will miss Ibu the most, she's my life. My family will really be missed. Hunny, I will miss you like mad and I will miss your voice and encouragements. I hope I can still call you at night and you can lift me through the entire ordeal. My friends, these past few events have really disappointed me. Some of you just can't be bothered that this was my last week out with you guys. Things will drastically change when I'm in and trust me, compared to now which is already bad, we won't be seeing each other another 80% of the time. For some, like Pang, though you have never really been close to us in the past, thanks for bothering. How I wish you joined us earlier so we could show you the ways of the world haha. You have alot to learn. I wonder how close the guys will be by the time I'm out.

Enough rambling, for now, hope NS will be fun. Oh and goodbye Luis Garcia, the most influential footballer in my life.

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