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Saturday, July 28, 2007

Traumatic Childhood
That's the conclusion of my visits.Sorry for disappointing your image of me as a tough and outgoing guy. I guess my past really did come back to haunt me. Now I can't stop worrying about home. Heart check-up in a month. I think my heart rubbed against my ribs or something like that. Unpleasant and painful experience. Throbbing headaches, diarrhoea, vomitting. Thank you ARMY for these wonderful experiences.

Don't get me wrong army CAN be fun. It WOULD HAVE BEEN fun if the bloody "gangsters" didnt merge up and ignored the rest of the platoon mates. 1/2 of my platoon is made up of them. Thank you guys for making life easy for us non-gangsters and thank you guys for making the environment really condusive, especially with all your stupid and unecessary fights with the weaker guys.

How I wish I could get bunk mates or at least platoon mates like those Timon and Wesley has. Life would have been easier, most definately. Sorry to all whom I've disappointed with this showing of my weaknesses and sorry if I can't live up to your expectations. I hope my plans on getting out of this works. Pray for me. To Yaht, I know what you're going through and I've been there. You should see my Coy man. You're lucky to be in echo. Take care bro and congratulations, you've surpassed me in terms of endurance. You're stronger than you think and I know you can make it. Walk on bro, be strong.

| 11:28 PM |

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

2nd Last Post B4 NS

Got no idea on what to say about NS. It's really weird for me because I'm not the least worried. Just scared of developing some weird ass crotch rash or something haha. I mean people are worried but I'm not. It's just weird. If you've known me long enough, you should know that the Haikal from 5-6 years ago would have definately been worried, about more things than 1.

1- I would have been worrying about how I'm gonna make friends there. Socializing has never been my forte. I was so scared to talk to people, hell, I didn't even order my own food!
2- I would have been more worried about what to bring and I would have brought a huge ass bag with too many things that I won't even use!
3- I would have been so self-concious about me being botak that I would have gone out of my way to Queensway to buy a bandana! Ok fine this part still sticks because I just did it last week or so.
I've changed a lot haven't I? Maybe not point number 3 but hey I order my own food now ok! Unless when I'm lazy haha which is most of the time.

Jango is like my new favourite word. I don't know but it just has a certain Zing to it when you say it. Tul, Hunny's sister, was reading out questions about Harry Potter characters and we were supposed to guess who it was and knowing only about a handful of characters in the show, I answered everything as Jango hahaha. It just rolls off your tongue effortlessly and sounds somewhat unpleasant. I LIKE IT. JANGO!

I wonder if there will be any weird retarded Mei Xian lineage bunkmates in my camp later. If there is and if he gets us punished for doing stupid things I will personally carry out an espionage mission and transfer his bed and locker to some empty corner of some secluded building. How about ghostly encounters? Kinda prepared for that since I have had my fair share of it. Food is gonna be horrible but hey at least I can have my 3 meals a day compared to the unstable frequency of meals at home.

Gonna miss many people though. Wonder how I'll manage my time. I'm ready though, more than before. I know I'm made for this. It's time. Sorry for the boring post. Just wanted to express myself abit more before I go. Timon, thanks for that tribute of yours, it was really touching. Thanks for everything too bro.

| 1:04 AM |

Friday, July 6, 2007

7 days

That's how long I have left till enlistment. I'm still not scared but I know I'm gonna miss my family, Hunny and friends. Plus things are going to change drastically in terms of my daily life and friendships.

No more slacking around for me, which is what I've been doing for so long. From 7 days later my life will be going at a faster pace than I've ever driven it. For the first time in my life I feel as though I don't have control over my gears and the shifting will be forcefully done by time itself. I feel alot heavier in terms of responsibilities weighing down on me, as if I feel my existence becoming more meaningful and I'm not floating in naivity anymore. In 7 days I will be completely down to earth.

Watched Transformers yesterday (finally) and I think I know why I'm not the least anxious or worried. Seeing soldiers in combat really gives me goosebumps and I think I'm born for action. Come to think of it I was never the type to sit around quietly and ponder on things and I always needed something to do and got into the most trouble among my friends. To summarise it, I simply love to get through adversity and explore my limits. I need to kick some butt to truly feel alive, but not participate in meaningless "I'm better than you" events like MR MAMAK hahaha. Why does everyone like Bumblebee? I prefer Frenzy! Cute! Though Starscream and Sixshot has always been my favourite though Sixshot wasn't featured. Not to mention Beast Wars's Dinobot!

To Yaht, don't worry so much. There will always be people who are weaker than you and if they can make it, you can. You're only as weak as your mind allows. Just worry about people who you will leave behind, I guess that makes you appreciate them more. I know I will miss Ibu the most, she's my life. My family will really be missed. Hunny, I will miss you like mad and I will miss your voice and encouragements. I hope I can still call you at night and you can lift me through the entire ordeal. My friends, these past few events have really disappointed me. Some of you just can't be bothered that this was my last week out with you guys. Things will drastically change when I'm in and trust me, compared to now which is already bad, we won't be seeing each other another 80% of the time. For some, like Pang, though you have never really been close to us in the past, thanks for bothering. How I wish you joined us earlier so we could show you the ways of the world haha. You have alot to learn. I wonder how close the guys will be by the time I'm out.

Enough rambling, for now, hope NS will be fun. Oh and goodbye Luis Garcia, the most influential footballer in my life.

| 2:41 PM |

Sunday, July 1, 2007

SUNBURN

Yesterday me, Pang, Fiz and Timon went to Sentosa. Met under the block at 9.20 and then met Timon at 10.10 (late as usual) and set off for Harbourfront. Had breakfast at the hawker centre and Hafiz bought $3 fried bee hoon which I think was daylight robbery. I had Nasi Goreng Ikan Masin which was also $3. It was good, but the dried fish still had scales on them. Damn you auntie.

Played beach volleyball under the blistering hot sun. Never have I experienced such heat. I've been to Sentosa countless times but I'm telling you yesterday was exceptionally hot! The sand was burning and we could barely keep our feet on the ground. We were like Hindus walking on fire at some temple. Ok maybe just Timon.

Happy without Hafiz in the pic wahaha! After that we went to Vivo's Banquet to have our western food. Yummy. We were supposed to go watch Transformers but it was all sold out. Then we decided to play pool but something came up and Timon had to go back so we all took the cab with him. While in the cab Pang took out his MP3 and I asked him, "Pang your MP3 how many KB?1KB?" and he replied, "6 la!" with frustration because I was asking too many questions. Then I asked again, "6KB only? Lidat how many songs can you put in sia, So sad." haha then he shouted with anger, "6JB LA!". Then I looked at him, "JB? Johore Baru? Jiga Byte?" hahaha and at this point he gave up. Of course he meant GB.

Timon was rushing so he dropped us under his block and we had to walk to the bus stop. On the way we talked about Cantonese and I mentioned "Chap" and Pang said "Chap means sweat, or is also can mean sauce." I was confused whether he said source or sauce so I told him so spell it out and he said, "S-A-U-S-E" hahaha. SAUSE! Took 99 and in the bus I found my new best friend, a lighter! I kept irritating Hafiz with it, occasionally burning his shirt hahaha. Plus he gets really irritated whenever i keep igniting the lighter near him repeatedly hahahaha.

After reaching home we met again and played Yugi-oh haha after so long of not playing. Then we decided to eat supper at a prata shop and Pang said he will treat me and Hafiz to one piece of "kosong". When the guy asked for our orders he said, "Uncle 3 piece kosong, 3 plates." The guy looked at him in awe and so did I. I thought he was kidding! So I cancelled the order and ordered muratabak instead. Had a good chat about secondary school life. Thanks guys lets go out again someday! Oh and I got sunburn on my back and I couldn't sleep peacefully because it hurts when I shift while sleeping and the pain will wake me up. Damn!!!

| 10:17 AM |